dearest boyfriend

to my distant dearest boyfriend, sebastian, i was looking through melho's birthday card for me when i realized how much im missing you. hehe. gosh u are hot sia.

i remember the first time when i saw u. we were walking out of the hotel, walking towards the bus, walking in the breeze of paris city, when i saw yoo. and shit how i lost my mind. speechless i was. i turned to melho, and she too was awestrucked by your beauty.

the whole time in that bus, we were continuously looking at you through the rearview mirror...
and those couple of times when u caught us looking at you. HEHE. maybe it wasnt even a coincidence that we went to the most beautiful places there were in paris. they complemented you =P

i remember melho and i planned to stay back in the bus coz we wanted to spend more time with you although it was the VERSAILLES we were visiting. melho and i couldnt wait to get back to the bus when we were touring the versailles. the beautiful garden we could resist. but you we COULDNT! HAHA


i remember the time when we reached the eiffel tower when u conversed with me for the first time. "MADEMOISELLE!" and u enquired about my minkfurhat. oooooh how i blushed. and oh how melho got DAMN MAD HAHAHA!
HOORAH SEBASTIAN TALKED TO ME! even if he dinnoe how to converse in english, he still attempted to talk to mee.. it mattered a lott =DD

then we had lunch at a garden.. and u gave me my food and a bottle of mineral water. U LOOKED AT ME. shit ur eyes they just shot through my heart. xP

the whole time we were at the louvre, i never took my eyes of yoooo. poor monalisa lost its value. oooh sebastian u are one of a kind.

separation was hard. but it was the moment that i will never forget EVER in my life. it was the very moment that we took this picture.
=) AHHHHH!!! we asked helen to help us snap the picture. and u placed ur arm on my shoulder!! AHHHHHH!! ooooh sebastian i was blushing the shade of a cherryapple.

for the whole journey, i kept thinking of you. whether we'd meet again at the city of paris. but we dint. and im still thinking of you. hai.

oooh sebastian im missing you. i suppose melho too.
sighhh. =( come to singapore pleaseee.

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helllloooo again worldwideweb. i know i said, not even 2weeks ago, that i wont be blogging for another 6weeks or so. but obviously that was a lie. memories are such untangible things that i just need to blog about them. ok so this will be the last post for the next 4 weeks or so. (hopefully) =D!


perfectly describes my mugging status: i lost my momentum
BIRTHDAY WEEK!

on friday, i met kak guy!!!! shes damnnn sweeet and too kind to me. i feel like crying. =((!! anw she treated me to seoul garden - one of my favourite restaurantssss-!! we went to seoul garden at marina square and there was NOONE around. so we practically had everything for oursleves. HAHA. it was dinner time so kak guy spent 28bucks on me. ... MARY JOINED US LATER WOO!

ok i let pictures do the talking. =D

YUMYUM?!!!

siewmai says dont eat meee. i took them to take pictures then gave them to mary HAHA.

iceeecream of many flavourss!

we ate A LOTTT of meat. at least i did... can u see my coffee chicken?! <333!! onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi-I5Q7jAvwWWS5cj_bjG-cbewFLRilKfh2DhwOUgk8wHXUa3KFuex856fxRoGt_JZEAsP8PUb0ctWguu7UnR-r2QI8f-2S_Vp0quIBYyP32lmcUhKXOVCwxXy8eRVpNfsmnllX/s1600-h/DSC04988-1.JPG">the view, the wind, the smell! simply spectacular!!

kak guy, me, mary @the rooftop! =D

kak guy and mary are such shy people. they dont like being in front of the camera. =(

then kak guy said "today got fireworks isit?" HAHA so i went to ask the security guard and he said "only malaysia got fireworks today!" HAHA! so kak guy tried to compensate by buying me a birthday cake. =DDD so sweeeet riteee...!!! so we went down, bought a cake, went up and celebrated! kinda advanced but heck. i felt happy!!!!

PRETTY HEART-SHAPED CAKEEEE <3!>

happypyyy cutting the cake =DD!

delirious? hehe.

kka guy kept snapping random pictures.

the cake was FREAKING NICE! SUPER RICH CHOCOLATE CAKE! a HUGEE hugo ant climbed into the box and took a bite or two. roar.

i was a happy gerrr. THANK YOU KAK GUY! I LOVE YOU LOADS. kak guy spent so much on me on my birthday. i want to cry. i love you so muchoos!!


THEN SATURDAY CAME! WOOOOO!!!!!! MELANDMAI's DAY! HAPPY BIRTHDAY MEL-HO-HO-MAIRAH!

me and melho met up and watched rush hour 3 with bitch. =D

and melho gave me THIS SUPERRRRRRRRR NICEEEE PRESENT! SO SWEEEEEETTTT!!! i felt like crying. partly because i felt rather bad coz i wasnt finished with her present hehe.

i loveee melho becauseeeee.. she loves me even when im naughty. =PP hehehe

pretty things huh!


anyhows, when i got home, i went to peek into the fridge, hoping to see a cake. BUT there wasnt. i was QUITE sad. but heck i told myself i already had a cake the previous night. so i wouldnt be THAT deprived. BUTTTTTTTT at night! my sister suddenly emerged from the kitchen carrying this swensens icecream cake! AHHHHHHH HAHAHAHAHAH! I WAS DAMN HAPPY. anw i was asking for babypooh icecream cake but they seemed to be rather reluctant the day before. BUT YAY THEY BOUGHT IT!! apparently the cake was in the freezer at the back of the house. HEHE.


baby pooh. <33>HALO tibs!

Anw, we couldnt go out that night coz my elder sis was working.. so we went out on sunday..! EATZi. yumyummmmmmmmm!!!!

timtim!

whole weekend.. did i mention anything about studying? NO!!!!! ok so going to school the next day was like a shock. but i got such pretty things from shao and teoteo. =DD!!

prettttyyyyy!


lovely people.

lohshao tried to get better of me. but i was quick yea? HAHA!

teoteo on the other hand wasnt. heheheh!


OK YAY I CAN STOP FANTASIZING and end my birthday week early =DD. birthday celebrations over now mugggggg! i neeeeed time. much more time than what is left. howhowhow.

sheesh. why is this entry underlined?

6 weeks. 6 weeks. 6 weeks.

ok here's to blogging for the last time until promos are over (finally) *cheers*

i need incentives to make me want to work for promos..
i need to be motivated..

right..

plans after Promos..

1. get shaoshao and teoteo to go escape theme park HAHA
2. go play hardcore daytona with melho and co. woo!
3. go watch amillionandone movies. woo!
4. SHOPPPPPPPP OMGOMGOMGOMG! i miss cashiers.

ok i shall not be over ambitious for now. though i think im going to do many many crazy things after that hoho.

threesome's the way...




OK SEE YOU IN 6 WEEKS!!

i want you to know that i love you

my heart feels VERY VERY heavy. it's like somebody just placed a 50kg weight into it. eff it. stop the world from dying. have u ever felt this feeling where you've taken someone for granted.. like u need not care about them.. never came across that u shud appreciate them for they are.. then suddenly u hear news about him/her being diagnosed with cancer... advanced stage already. it feels like shit. especially when she's the same age as you, and is your cousin.

me and n were discussing jsut now. many many people around are dying of cancer. why is it such a tcbih(unscramble)?! which leads me to saying that.. i am feeling VERY VERY insecure. i am young. so what. next moment IIII may be the one who's being diagnosed with some freakingeffingcancer. SHIT. I HATE THIS FEELING SHIT.

i should start taking more brocollis. i shall research on cancers. and make sure i get my loved ones to be aware of this too. i cant bear to see anyone close to be die of cancer anymore. shit. people eat brocollis. lower ur intake of processed food. eff. i noe cursing doesnt help. but i cant help it. sorry. all i can do now is to pray for her recovery. and pray for my wellbeing. NO MORE CANNED DRINKS.

i have been taking LIFE for granted. ive always screwed life. life is unfair life is unfair. but ive never worked towards making it better for me. now im certain.. that i need to change for the better. it may be too late later on in life. i need to start changing now. as cliche as it sounds, it's THE REALITY, noone lives forever, and death can just be at our front gate now. he can decide exactly when to ring the bell. it's not our call to make him wait. but how we end our lives, we can decide that for oursleves.

I SHALL APPRECIATE EVERY SINGLE SOUL AROUND ME ( i.e. GREET BUS UNCLE)
I SHALL SEE THE WONDERS OF LIFE
I SHALL NOT BE A POMPOUS PRAT AND COMPLAIN COMPLAIN COMPLAIN
I SHALL DIE KNOWING THAT I HAVE ACCOMPLISHED MY GOALS

but most of all.. (short term)
I SHALL STUDY STUDY STUDY
till death do us part.

things happen for a reason.
and i think this is mine.

WHERE ARE U!!!!

shit. how to finish essay without philippines notes? can i die now? howhowhow. PLEASE APPEAR SOMEWHEREEE U SCUMBAG!!

voldyyy <33

i've finally finished reading the fourth book of the harry potter series and once again im simply at lost for words. jkrowling is just damn freaking imba. i salute salute =). but while reading the book, i realize that i have an affection for a certain character in the book. Although he may seem a little violent and naughty, lord voldemort, undeniably, does have the style. hehe. *blush* like the way he contains his emotions and how he does things slowly.. not in a rush to kill harry. it's all so stylish dont u think? i mean if i were me in his shoes/robes, i'd just do the killing curse as soon as ive reformed. =))) ANDDD i think he is the only character in the book that has successfully been pictured most accurately in the hp movies. dont u think he's rather good looking? tall, fair, bald, not bulgy.. just perfecttt.. hehe. <33.

this is what i call styleeeeeee <33!

voldemort actor is goooodlooking huh! yumyum!


andddd i believe, it's time for me to change my blogskin. i see cobwebs.

yeah whatever.

it's no fun blogging when ure down.. post wont be interesting.
i dont like this year's national day parade. it's just so small and dumb.
i dont like this year's national day songs. there are two.
the DAMN EXTRA man i found out was a gay.
kit chan sucks at dancing? yea.
erk. im letting NDP affect me?
im pathetic.

what makes youu so special that you get to affect me so much..

singapore!

happy national day! ive totally wasted 2/5 days. nvm tomro saikang go library and finish SEA history term paper yea? goooooood. a zillion and one pieces of shithomework to finish in 3 days. mai needs some luck wished.

on a side note, here's a shout out to singapore! i've always sung the singapore anthem with GUSTO! give me a good career and i'm sure to pay HUGEEEEE amounts of tax to you. i'll keep you happy as long as you keep me happy. i love singapore!! =)))

feeling pathetic?

national day celebrations yesterday was the most grand school celebration i had gone for, EVER. but i guess at the end of the day, it will be more grand (and would have more affection on me) if i had been on the stand with my friends, making a heeckkk of a noise with light sticks, singing national day songs in a choir of off-tuned voices. it hit me yesterday evening, when we were singing the school song on the field, that if i had my friends around me, then i'd sing with more gusto! =) as shulin and i would put it hehe.

im sore. bcoz of many many things. many many things that make me really sore. im not being emo no. i doubt im even very depressed. im just sore. sore that life isnt going as smoothly as i wish it would. but you see noone has a perfect life. you want to live in a fairytale? sure. but even those princesses went thru a lot of hell before having a 'happy ever after'. maybe i'm just going through that phase of going through a lot of hell. my happy ever after will come sooner or later. nevertheless, after every 'happy ever after' there'll be a PART 2. then a PART 3. that's it isnt it. life is just like the ocean. there's so much for you to venture but it's unpredictable nonetheless. one moment you'll need to fight through a tsunami, another moment it'd just be a small wave. there will be waves forever, but the moment will come after every wave that.. you'd just find urself facing the most perfect sunset. at the end of every misery, there would be a prize to claim.. the happy ending.

looking back..

i watched the video for our semis match on the bahas blog.. and i realized that i was shouting out my points rather than saying them nicely HAHA. mebbe that was why we won. watching the video, i shut my ears. what did the judges do then? haihaihai.