i have successfully deactivated my facebook and the withdrawal syndrome (apart from nausea and diarrhoea) hasn't been that bad (Y).
i don't like this feeling that i'm faced with right now. i feel like a weed that needs to be plucked out (by the roots) from people's lives with all the pain that i'm causing everyone.. then i realized that of late i've been too caught up with worldly things, so much that i feel detached from God.. which is bad yes? i miss those lonely trips back home where i spend time reflecting but now even when im lonely i dont do that anymore.. which is bad yes? i've turned into a monster in so many ways and i haven't noticed it until now.. which is bad yes?
i know i'll be going to hell for this. i don't deserve to be forgiven for my arrogance but thank you God for leading me onto this path, or i wouldnt have had the opportunity to learn this lesson.
i need a nice big tree to 'meditate' under. haha!
for patience is the key.