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time is a factor

after the CTs, i need to numb my brains before i get brain dead from getting back our results. i have no confidence. i'm scared for tomro. history is no joke. time is a factor...

time is always a factor...

sigh.

we're empty

emo and depressing songs exist for a reason... they relate to you.

one, they make you think of somebody.
two, they make you think of somebody who thinks of somebody else while listening to the song

that does make it ultra depressing doesnt it?

maybe we're trying.
trying too hard.
maybe we're torn apart.
we're empty


seriously..
we are..

today's friday.

people who dont take history are some lucky yomsters.
we ought to be saluted.

2 more days.

i hope you feel just like i feel

yesterday night, i dreamt of acceptance. which made me happy. but also wonder. about the possibility of the acceptance. i guess most of the time, ppl just dream but never did they think the possibility of the clouds they are on giving wayy and then they just crash land.. KABOOM! in other words, reality is almost never like what dreams deem them to be? soo stop dreaming and just do what u can!

that aside, i am getting very tired of studying. it's not as if i have been studying a lot lately for the CTs. it's just that studying has lost its interest already.. i dont get the excitement for studying as i did like 6 years ago? i need to want to work my brain. it's seems like i cant find that 'on' button in my brain to start producing nice interesting passionate ideas. bah. this sucks. i need the passion for the As.. esp if i want to do well..

anw adil appeared on arena just now! haha he loooks so cute with the harry potter hair haha! congrats RI btw for going to the next round =)) ajaaja adil and team!

i hope you feel just like i feel


FAT HOPE!

gaylangggg

heeehee. OKIE i swear this will be the lastest-test-test entry of the month till after CTs. i promiseee. =D! anw i felt like updating coz today... it was a fairly interesting day =D!

ok firstly, in the morning, my alarm clock rang and i was in the midst of this dream which somehow made me wonder how amazing my mind responded to the ringing of the alarm clock like wow.. ok that dint make sense rite.. but trust me, when it happened, it TOTALLY made sense. u get what i mean? dreams totally make sense when u are dreaming them but when u wake up the stuff u dream about becomes nonsensical shitasses. (like my childhood nightmare about ronald mcdonald climbing over my window and trying to kill me with a knife. wooo totally made sense.. totally scared the shit out of me.) i still wonder if he will climb over my window and kill me after 12 years dreaming it. haha.

ooh k that apart.. when i got to school i caught up with lynette! haha! lynette chen.. we were classmates in sec 1&2. the weird thing is.. lately, ive done a lot of catching up with friends i last spoke to last decade. HAHA. ok mebbe 1/3 of a decade ago? and it's cool! like u realize ppl change and how ppl still stay the way they are.. cool cool. so yes! i feel happy to say hello to ppl ive not said hello to for so long.

thennn... when lessons started, i got souppppperrr sleepy. so like during history lecture, no questions asked, i zonked out for what like 15mins? then continued sleeping during my only break in a million hours (7 hours to be exact). went to the library.. told myself that i shud attempt to read at least a few articles from The Economist.. but then i hugged the 2 magazines and slept like a pig until luo called me to go for econs hwahwa!

i'm dumb. it hurts my brain thinking im dumb. oww. =(

OOH kohzuoming claimed that he looks like wentworth miller with his new hair. HWAHWAAA!!!!! i screamed a laugh which made mrs low stare at me like zomgz. i think she doesnt like me =S which reminds me! i used to have an eyecandy from J3 who looked like michael scofield. omg i remember his name.

anw after school, had drama..cikgu obviously likes arina's acting since she says "dia bagos eh! bagoss!!" ("she's good rite! good!') like every 10seconds ahha! and she laughed like evry 5 secs. so yay! and nunu said she was bored watching the scene when taa was there but was entertained when we added all the kentalans and amusing parts hwahwa. yay i am beginning to have hope for drama! BUT THE OTHER PPL OTHR THAN HAS AND POPATS DO NOT COME FOR PRACS! THAT MAKES ME FREAKING PISSED. ROARRRR!!!

ok that aside, today was a cold cold day. i peed 93749832 times today. ok thrice. thats a lot considering sometimes i go without having to go for toilet breaks at all during lessons. TOILET BREAK HAHA. (MAS SELAMAT IS STILL OUT THERE AHH!) ok then after drama, me popat and mary went to Geylang to choose our costumes =D! but on the way there, while waiting for abg ram, we went to the pasar malam and bought earrings which i got from marina square at 3 for 5bucks but there it was a buck per pair. kentals. so i bought doraemon and err a pair of black star earrings. woo. went to the perkampongan and chose a PINKKKKKK costume. i shant show u. haha but it's nice with teh samping and everything =D. woo. after which, we went to the GEYLANG MARKET to eat the uber nice porridge. but almost all the 38734726 stalls were shut! so we ended up not eating bubur but we shared a plate of rojak.

for a while, we thought... "waaaa we are damn malay now pls. we are at geylang. sitting at the geylang market coffee shop. eating rojak. drinking teh tarik." NICE. hahaa. anw i gulped down 2 mugs of Teh Halia coz my stomach was being such a bitch. So yeaaaaaa it cleansed everything in my stomach whatever it is. hahahaaa

ok this is such a longlong entry. although for a reader it may not be significant, i think today, i learnt a lot! haha. ok whatever. i go mug now. byebye!

i miss you! woo!


helloooooo! okie it has been a long time since i bloggeddd and it will be a long time too(hopefully) till i blogged again. ok briefly let's see what significant events happened eversince i blogged the previous time..

1. i got humped by a bastard monster while having my first ever freaking painful stomach cramps. bastard really (both).
2. we had GP common test. which i think i screwed up the essay more than the compre. soooo ok just hope for teh best yea?
3. i initiated smth which made me happy.. very happy.. but then i stopped it coz it got to my conscience and i felt pathetic. so i decided to stop doing it but i am still happy. very happy.
4. i fell in love with this old school malay song which i knew existed but was just reminded of a few day ago. haha. i shall share later.
5. i had family day where i sang miserably at =) i rock

uncle cousin me cousin sister cousin uncle.


6. i ponned school. yet again. another pathetic side of me.
7. im starting to like tarian. (wowwww.)
8. math is gooood! i finished chap.12B last week! (wow. impressive.)
9. CTs are coming. im dead.
10. im pathetic. (ooh did i mention that earlier?)

ok now for the malay song that i fell in love with. i feel like i am obliged to share it with you. so here. A MUST READ.although the malay version is like WAYYYYYYY better than this. I still want to share it with you. haha.

okie here goes: The heaven on your face! hahaaa. yea thats the title of the song. Anw this song is about how his wife went through a hell lot of shit when he strayed away from her and did smthsmth i donoe what.. he dint elaborate. but yeah i think he cheated on her. anw he kinda like regret going astray and really appreciate how his wife persevered while seeing him going astray ah.. and there's this particular verse which says "you didnt mind, as long as you saw me happy". i mean like which shitass husband will be so lucky to get such a good wife? and yet husbands take advantage of their wives. tsktsk. the good thing is he decides to get back to the right path and be together with his wife again.. awwwww... jerk i know... but the way he sang .. omg it's like so sincere. so i played the song like 10times on my way home hwahwa! this is the new isabella. woots! ok read read. the more recommended verses are the coloured ones. =D!

God purposely wants to test us
On patience of man
You, my lady, who I honour
The symbol of world’s passion for love

Surely you’ve wondered about
The incident yesterday
The moment I sold off our love
To the thorns of infatuation

Really don’t know where my mind went
Till lost in the well-lighted path
This is the fate that was given
To test the strength of our souls

The moment when I forgot you
In (your) long emptiness of love
How your heart didn’t mind
Just for the sake of seeing me happy


You persevered all the sufferings
In your heart, only praying,
Hoping, for my return
For the light to be bright again

I was drowning in the tide of sins
At the sea, a storm resides
And swimming to shore,
For the real meaning of love.


Tears of love from you
Made me miss,
The heaven on your face
Showing no signs that you’ve sinned

Let me kiss you hand
Washing the dirt off the face of
Mine. Me, who drowned in the tide of sins,
At the sea, a storm resides

You persevered through all the sufferings
In your heart, only praying that
I swim back to shore
Seeking for the real meaning of love

And I will persevere, any punishment
In my heart, only praying
Let me kiss your hand,
Once more, together

Not only once, i walked on thorns
Only God will truly
Understand.

NICE RITEEEE I KNOW!!! i love especially the metaphors! cliche but extremely impactful. <333333...>


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