so so sad

however much i dont want to stuff the fact into my dumb head, i really need to accept the truth and get over it soon.

people have the right to like each other. people are not compelled to like those who like them. there are very few cases whereby people like a person who happens to like him/her back. thus, you are not a loser if u like someone who doesnt like you or likes someone else. one must not be a pompous ass and whine on why the person is treating you that way bcause he/she has the right to do so. one must not be in denial and complain why the person does not like you bcause ure not the only girl/boy in the universe for him/her. one shudnt be a desperado. one must learn to respect and appreciate the diversed taste of others. one must learn how to move on and be happy, not emo. however, one must still be cordial with him/her and act as if nothing happened before. one will be happy.

im sure.

one is a loser omg.

emooo

living in a made-believe world feels like youre walking on cloud 9 until reality strikes. then it's like being hit by a passing-by airplane and immediately you are thrown off the cloud and go crashing into hard earth! ouch. reality hurts. bish.
sometmes i wonder if little kids get crushed when they find out that barney doesnt exist.
that bloody purple dinosaur is just a made-believe character but the media makes it look so real.
i remember when i was 6 (i think) i told my mom that one day, if i had enough money, i want to take the whole family on a vacation to cartoon-land. and when my mom told me (nicely) that there isnt such a thing as cartoonland, i was REALLY VERY VERY crushed. i really wanted to meet bugs bunny. how idiotic it seems to sound, but it happened. hai. however crushed i was, my mom took us to goldcoast australia the next year to meet bugs bunny at movie world. haha! i was happy.
i feel damn emo. yet again, ive been crushed by reality. *screams* but not since i was 6. no. i just hope that this time, there will still be something that can overcome this feeling. although i dint get to meet cartoon-ed bugs-b, i did get to see spastic bugs-b walking around, waving frantically at little naive kids. and i hope this time round, something like that happens as well... however fake it is, i need to overcome this feeling.

today is emo day for everybody. my tummy feels emo too. =/

if my sweetheart so desires

yommmm!!! i cant go for class adventure camp coz of my dumbshit stomachflu bahhh!! the doctor gave me 3 days mc but i still wanted to run to serembun and kayakkkk!! but my father dint allow me to. im so sadddddd ahhhhh!! it's like ive been looking forward to this camp since i first heard of it (i know this sounds damn loser) but i really reallyyyy wanted to do the high rope element stuff and kayak and whatnots!! and worsee still, like exactly now, my class is happily enjoying cooking together while i rot at home puking! i want to cook alsoooo! bah i cant believe im missing all the fun =(

however! on a lighter noteee, i received very sweeet messages just now... hehe! mrs ve said this "ok. take care! we miss you.." hahaha! so sweeeet rite! that was the least i expect of her. OH and darling melho said she'll go kayaking with me!! hehehehe! so sweeet! yayyyy! my friends rock! but i think i will be back in school on wednesday ah. i cant afford to miss anymore lessons. =S

SURABAYA WAS FUN! FUN FUN! i want to live there and shop till i drop dead in the mall. hahahhaaha! how fun how fun! i wished we had more time though. i'll post the pictures when i feel better hehe!

i shall go watch my girl now. =D!
mai is a pig.

ti's weddingg!

wooooooooooooooooo its 1.50 am and i dont feel like sleeping yet. i realized i havent been updating much on my blog for quite some time although my life has been so colourful these past few days hahaha! the most colourful being my sister's wedding last week end. HOWEVER since i'm going to be away this weekend, holidaying at surabaya for free haha and then having the class ad camp on monday and tuesday, i realized that the next time i would be able to update about the wedding would be on the following wednesday. by then i would have forgotten half the things that happened and excitement would have died down already. so i shall update NOW!

hehehee! omg now that my sister's married i see her differently already. it's like i dont see her as one of us anymore. she's someone else's wife more than she is my sister. u get what i mean? it's like suddenly the responsibilities/priorities of someone close to get directed to someone else. but anyhows she's still living with us. hehe! someone getting married.... to me its like a uber great change for that particular person. u get more mature. u need to be more responsible. and u lose a title which for me.. is treasured much. HAHA. u get what i mean. the v word. V! *gasp* kekeke. eh i sound as if ive been tehre, done that.. im not married. nono.

okie without furtherado! PICTURES! woopee!


oooh pretty titi and her room full of wedding gifts for her hubby!

YOU SEE THAT? it says l'occitane. hahaa! there's a story behind this. i came into ti's room and saw this basket so i went

me: eh L'occitane (Lo-ki-tain)! thats like the name of my OG.
ti: what the heck is L'occitane (Lo-Ki-Tain)?
me: ehh? isnt this from L'occitane? (Lo-ki-tain)?
ti: omg. it's L'occitane!!!! (Lock-Si-Tarn)! dont know how to pronounce properly! hahahaha

HAHAHA!!! and all this while.. HH08 has been pronouncing it wrongly and enthusiastically. WAKAKAKAKA!

ok moving on!!

OOH THE SOLEMNIZING CEREMONY! u see abg adil sitting on the mat?! thats like the tok kadi ah. i feel so nervous for him haha! it's like the end of ur bachelorhood mannn.

then ti had to sign the form to officialize the marriage. and then.. she's married. it's damn fast. i was sshock. shes no longer singleee you noee!


ahhhh! we were all screaming ahhahahaha! so sweeet!!!


paternal cousins and kpo aunty boos ahahhaha!


i like this picture! i think they look so sweet! OH THE FLOWER BOUQUET IS FREAKING PRETTTYYYY!! <3333! onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEga0OyhaOZG8uwNSbWhEaFcACFyPVo7-E-8xoIOjwIWZXIQY3vzGHOtbNYggwmwXjIjrk0Gb9Bk0TH2fjUp7HLgGRPY0SV0MZLwzxfIaljTFE9lvy5GZBzA5zS4gAVwbZ2NiF-I/s1600-h/DSC04340-1.JPG">i like this dress. bronzish. =D!

GUESS WHO CAME FOR THE WEDDING?! HAHAHA! aaronnnn aziz! aahhh hes damn hot. but he came damnnn late. like at 7.45pm. ahhh so hot. <333! onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhJ7K9JvgIlVdxUZa_usZz3zfDj_M6UbIHHjy5KUU-8aOH36xXTgeYiNaFE54Q8szIPFVVLDBKRLvgAsCuY4srLGBWp2_oq3No9G2zaJpTDsMALGibIgTpZAO5nf3snI9tsiSRX/s1600-h/DSC04346-1.JPG">HAHA!

maternal cousins! they are like twice my age! ok not. the 2 beside me are like 25 and the one at the far right is errrrrrrrrrrrrrr 28. FUN PEOPLE RITE! so old still cna camwhore hahahahaha!

FUNKYYYYYYYYYYY!!!


kekeekkee! camwhoreeeeeee!

then the paternal cousins!!! this one the age gap not so wide. from left to right, add 2 years each.

wooooopee.

ah the additional one -2years of my age hehe!

funkeyy!

my favourite grandauntttt!! she's like the closest grandparent that we have currently. shes damn cute! hahaha!

my cousin arif in a box. hahahaha! we forced him to sit in there. anw the rose.. i gave it to him..

me: arif here's a rose for you. but u have to promise me something. can?
arif: okie.
me: you have to promise me you'll stay cute forever.
arif: okie!
me: now get into the box.
arif: okie!

hahahahahhahaha! so adorable lah this fellow.

the wedding taught me A LOT of things. and confirmed many things as well. it is true that even during a happy occassion there can be MANY MANY politics. haha! even between family members. the only way to go thru all these is to be patient. and ive also learnt that when u do something meaningful for someone else, you feel accomplished at the end of the day. so i wont complain having to do 4875473857394857 tasks while my sister was only given 3483434 tasksto do. hehe! at the end of it all, when u realized it has already ended, you just go "it ended? thats all?" haha! what pokkie said is right then. hoho. weddings have similar traits!

bah my computer is being such a pompous ass. freaking slow like shit. i need to pee. and sleep. i cant wait for class camp.

wth. i just realized that i'll be going to school tomro only for gp. then 1.5 blocks of break then i can leave school for surabaya already hahaha! bish. veluri is nice.

eventful. im sure.

bahhwaaakeewaaaaah!

today was soooooooooooo dreadful ahhh! just imagine.. sitting in for a workshop from 8.30am to 8.30pm when ure supposed to sit in only from 8.30-6.30!!! can dieee omg. like seriously if the content applies to me..and my status as a STUDENT .. i wouldnt mind listening to all that crappishrubbishjunk for 12 hours. but when they talk abt CAPITALS and INVESTMENTS up to $8100. u think that'll interest me? so i automatically switched off after lunch and slept.. after 2 hours my father nudged me to stay awake and i was forced to "be attentive". but that basically means i have to errr stay awake. so, discretely, i listened to my muse. haha! hysteria is lovee! u cant really blame me for not being attentive lah seriously. the session before lunch was like ok.. understandable.. applicable.. cool. BUT AFTER LUNCH.. things got cheeeeem-er. like what the kuku is dropship?! and vertical portal. ?!! HAHHA! totally turned me off. though i have to admit those americans can present well. but they are SO-OMGly slowwwww. i think my cats can work faster than them. are cats even slow in the first place. oh well u get the msg. speaking of cats.. they told us a joke just now abt cats.

5 cats were sitting on a fence. 3 decided to jump off the fence. how many were left?

so i thought that was the TYPICAL copycat joke. so NONE are left on the fence. BUT. hoho. the answer is 5 still.

why?

coz they only DECIDED to jump off . they dint jump off in real life. -____-

i know. thats why i was sleeping. AHAH.

my enthu dad had to stay back and ask questions -_- sooooooooo i had to wait. and wait. and wait. and wait. till 8.30. bish. ive got sooo many hmk to complete by tomro. friday saturday and sunday are going be superrrr busy dayss.

however, on a lighter note! here's wishing all these people a very happy birthday today!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KAK MACEH, KAK INAH, WUSSY, TERENCE AND KHAIRUL AMRI!! haha! u know khairul amri as in the soccer player khairul amri hahaha! ok u must be wondering .. "big deal" BUT it IS a big deal. he scored the winning goal ok. its because of him we won the cup k!

rightt..

OH AND...

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY TO TIM AND TIBS! <3333!

?!!!

i was writing melho a testimonial when i caught sight of an advertisement. it made me lmao. i shall show it to you.


HHAHAHHAA. i dint know they use it so openly. hahahaha im still lmao-ing omgg haha!

the day for camwhores!

ooh i shall post pictures on o2. it was quiteee fun lah but we slacked around most of the time haha. melho's OG went BOWLING instead!!! im so jealous aahhhhh! bishbish.

okie first up! camwhore with lynette and ally-cat! haha! this is just one of the numerous shots hoho! thats pose#10 btw.


then i caught up with melho and we still got the time to camwhore a littleee bit while walking down to our lodges. hahaha! it's been a longggg time since we last camwhored. cam-ho-ed. hahaha!


then we went to our respective destinations and slacked at the foodcourt at cine. thats zixuan and alak. ( alak: i thought i had a brain.. where is it? ) HAHHHAHAHA


HAPPY PEOPLE! hellooo david!


ninja chinks.

okie then we set off to complete our tasks. we were given this list of tasks and were supposed to take pictures of thigns that the task may describe. so for eg. there was: camwhore. then brokeback. then group hug. random random things lah. sooooo yeah. bottomline: it encouraged us to camwhore. hahahaha! so here goes! our uber poseur og. teehee!

this is our brokeback pose! ahahaha! SOUPERRR HILARIOUS HAHAHAHA!! vote for ur fav couple!!! look at wussy and yanlong! perfect match! hahaha!


spiderman!! what's susan doing to mark omg?! hahahahaha!


then they decided to be stuntmen.


hahahahahahaha this looks so wrong lahhh!!

hahahaha! wussy and mark look like theyre enjoying it hahaha! poor chinks.


thennn we got back to schoool and i caught up with melhoo again! yay! cam-ho!

more of "melho and i"s! teeehee! someone's looking at this picture rite?! hahaha! someone's enjoying it. kekekekeke!


ooh then we had housemeeting at LT2 which was fun! coz we played this bingo game. we were separated into 2 columns and our colour was PURPLE! the other column was black. a category will be flashed on stage, like longest, highest, biggest ... and we were supposed to guess which noun comes after that and send a rep from the column to participate in that bingo game. but our og ended up sending all of our ppl up there and pwn-ing the bingo game! hahaha!


this time it was biggest mouth! hahaha! wussy's turn! hellooo wussy!!!


lookkk at that! humairah chinyee and zixuan! all from HH08!! hehe! ooh mark won one later for longest breath. hahaha! haha so yay! purple won! (thanks to our og pls) woooo hh08 rocks! hehehe!

then one by one our ogmates boycotted the rest of O2. HAHA! which marks the end of the day hahaha!




ahhh soooooo damn prooo!

hot hot hot hot hot hot

i hope you dont mind..
i hope you dont mind...
that i put down in words
how wonderful life is..
now you're in the world

*gushes* hehehehehe

okie fine pokkie and melho kept telling me that im obsessed. bish.

anyhows, THE HOLS ARE HERE! yippee! but theres the wedding to prepare for. yom. my hols are going to be sooo wasted. AND my dad signed me up for an INTERNET MARKETING workshop on the 14th. !!!!!! coz he signed up for it and so happens they gave him a free place. so he decided to sign me up. bishhh. seriously internet marketing?! it's a whole day affair ahh! bah. morning till afternooon. i want to do smth elseee on the 14th! =(

HAPPY BIRTHDAY IN ADVANCE MR KWOK! hehehe!


ok quote of the day!
"love comes unplanned. and unexpected" hoho!

reallyyy?

eeee i feel all so econs.

woopie. we're over and done with econs test! =D! anw it was oklah... manageable.. i managed to finish it BUT of course that doesnt guarantee an A. hoho. if i manage to scrape a C, i'd be quite happy already! but yayy! wussy is veh nicee! wussy helped me yesterday eheh! thank u wussy! =)! maybe i should get him a lollipop if i get a good score for it. HAHA.

i cant wait for thursdayy!
random.
i cant be bothered with writing nicely for assignments already. i need to practice writing fast
random.
RI sells cheaper timsum paus than 7eleven. bish.
random.
im sleepy.
no wonder.

OHOHOH! U KNOW WE WERE HAVING ECONS TUTORIAL AT A62 just now when the building SUDDENLY SHOOOK! IT WAS SO SCARYYY LAHHH!!!! can u just imagine?! in the midst of talking (notice.. talking... not discussing) when i thought someone was kicking my chair.. but then someone said "err. do u realize the floor is shaking?" I REALIZED THAT IT WAS THE FLOOR SHAKING AND NOT THE CHAIR!!! AHHH!! THEN WE PANICKED! LIKE WTH! HOW CENTRAL IS BISHAN?!! freaking central. i started worrying abt the places near the coastal line... like my house especially.. ahh so thrilling! hahaha!


sometimes, when we hope for something that we knoww is unattainable, it's best we dont desire it at all. let it go. face reality. get back on the bloody PPC before it's too late. HAHA. and nows the right time for me.

coffee is bad for meeee *sings*

ahhh im so tempted to drink coffee but the effect it had on me just now was totally unbearable!! i felt like puking ah. eeeeeeee i dont like coffee. i did mention that my mom buys carrefour-labelled coffee but (thankfully?) it's finished! so i opened a bottle of NESCAFE coffee and, not thinking (not like i always do), i scooped out the same amount of coffeepowder i used to make coffee using CARREFOUR labelled coffee (which is so URGHLY unrich) with NESCAFE. SO yeah. the bitter taste is OMGish overwhelming. while running round the track just now, i made sure i ran the outer circumference just incase i need to puke.. i can just puke on the grass/trees. hehe. ahhhh copheeobia. HOHO! a word a create. it means to have fear for coffee. =)

how do i stay awake without having to drink coffee then? ahshit.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AMELINE CHANNNN!!!!

fine.

we were on the way to the tailor's when my tim asked me abt schoolwork. so i told her that ive to chiong one more histy essay. then she said...

tim: dont leave things to the last minute can?! you better work hard and not burden us when your results cant make it. from the looks of it, ure not working hard enough.

me: ??????!!!!!!!!

omg did she just forget that she wrote a letter to the school saying that she wants me to take a day off coz i havent been sleeping due to SCHOOLWORK?! omgomgomg! for a while i thought she had stm. BUT THEN.. i realized that she wasnt actually scolding me. infact.. i think she was shooting my sister who happened to be there as well. yom.

ANYHOWS! we got our clothes for ti's wedding from the tailor! AND MY BAJU IS SO FREAKING NICE OMG!!! i love it! hehe! i cant wait to wear it. 18th of march here i come! the baju for dinner not bad also lah. but i like the sunday baju the most! hee!

what does the As mean to me? my future. my pride. my confidence. my life.

then work for it.

whats the outcome of having a good dream like?

negative.


oh no. how. i dreamt that i got into council! actually i dreamt that i dint get into council then there was this TWIST and apparently there was a mistake and i DID get into council. usually if u dream of smth.. smth the opposite will occur instead. ahh. oh no its getting me all so depressed. but then again.. i shudnt be believing in this kind of superstitious beliefs. haihai. and if it will happen, then i have to be prepared to accept the worst. =)


far away. this ship has taken me faraway.

one sweet day.

wtfreak. how can anybody be addicted to coffee. blearghhhh! seriously. and to think i fancied drinking starbucks for while last time hoho! typical poser. drink for the sake of drinking. style my ass. bish. waste money. anw. ive been killing myself lately with coffee. omg like is there any other way i can stay awake without having to drink coffee. smth safe and easy. coffee is freaking bitter omfreaks! bishhhh!!! no matter how different the method of making coffee can be... the bitterness can NEVER be rid of. ahhhsh. sarami. i tried coffee + condensed milk.. bitter and sweet. coffee + sugar.. bitter, sweet and too black. bah. sometimes i wonder..i mean the coffee bean is brown.. the powder is brown.. but why does it turn black after water is added to it? ahhh chemistryyy! isit? haha!

and i know ure shining down on me from heaven..

ive been such a biatch today. ah shit. haiz.

every mistake every wrong turn everytime i lost my way.. led me to this.. moment of bliss.. tonight..

BUT of course there were some good occurences. teeheeheeeee. pats. i was alone in the bus and when i thought abt it.. i smiled to myself. HAHA u can imagine how weird i could have seemed to any passenger that noticed me then.

i'll admit that there was something i missed

nevertheless! back to histy!

dream come true. so funny now that i see. how different life turned out to be.

=) cause of you.

goodbye

bishhhh!! i DO have a big mouth seriously. oh nooooooo! i betrayed a friend's trust. i feel bish-ish. hai.

btw the lesson we had during civics impacted me.. although not greatly but it did impact me nvrtheless. it was undeniably an eye-opener and somehow i agree to some of the things it says. also, i would never think of those answers if i were to ask myself that kind of questions. like for example..

ur thoughts: "he doesnt seem to like me =("
what u SHOULD be thinking: "its ok. i cant simply please everybody. but i can still treat him cordially."

HAHA! without doubt u need a calm state of mind to think of such comforting lines. however, you may think these self-comforting ideas may seem a littleeeee denial haha! like wth. LIVE WITH IT U IDIOT HE DOESNT LIKE YOU. FULLSTOP. loser.