beautiful disaster

He drowns in his dreams
An exquisite extreme I know
He's as dumb as he seems
And more heaven than a heart could hold
And if I try to save him
My whole world could cave in
It just ain't right
It just ain't right

Oh when I don't know
I don't know what he's after
But he's so beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster
And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
Would it be beautiful?
Or just a beautiful disaster

His magical myth
As strong as with I believe
A tragedy with
More damage than a soul should see
And do I try to change him
So hard not to blame him
Hold on tight
Hold on tight

Oh cuz I don't know
I don't know what he's after
But he's so beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster
And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
Would it be beautiful?
Or just a beautiful disaster

I'm longing for love and the logical
But he's only happy hysterical
I'm waiting for some kind of miracle
Waited so long
So long

He's soft to the touch
But afraid at the end he breaks
He's never enough
And still leaves more than I can take
Oh cuz I don’t know
I don't know what he's after
But he's so beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster
And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
Would it be beautiful?
Or just a beautiful disaster

-He's beautiful...
Such a beautiful disaster...-

go figure the bold words. =))

too latee!!!!

oh no.
i just realised smth

i argue too much.

awakiedoodledooS

woahahaha!
todae is a funny funny dae
altho nothing veryy funny happened
but u see like this tiny tiny funny things which make it funny
haha!

i had cooking lesson.
and i partnered siti.
we had to see mrs goh do the baking
then get back to our own units andbake
and I SLUMBERLY went to the unit before mine
and started preparing stuff
HAHAAH!! siti was like.. "HAHAHA MAIRAHH!!!"
ok paisey! the owners of the units were rather shocked
seeing me messing with their stuff.
HAHAHA

ok that was one
thenn we had to timeee the duration of the bakingg
so we need a ?? TIMER! yay!
yes the timer was ticking.
it was then placed
where i was busy folding the mixture
and then it RANG!
AND I WAS SO SHOCKED, i jumped and scream
IT WAS IN FRONT OF ME LAH PLS!! haha!
it was funny when it happened.
everyone luffed. kekeke! paiseyy

okie thats two.
now during bio which was before everything else.
ms chng wrote MITOCHONDRIA BIG BIG on the board
and she saed..
why do u tink i wrote MITOCHONDRIA in a LARGE font?
me: it is important..
ms chng: THANK YOU! why issit important?
me: coz u wrote it in a large font..
HAHAHA!
thats a fallacy!
anw she asked whynne to draw two dots,
a green and a red one,
using a WHITEBOARD marker, on MY forehead
walao. i put a bit only
hahaha
anw. protein is a gay molecule
and ms chng agreed. =)))
it is always coloured purple.
=)))
bio was funny just now. haha!

whynne rolled a mushroom out of her socks
and she put it on her table
i took it and put it on her head,
making it look like a hat
ms chng saw!! haha!
she was like eeew!!
hahahaha

ooh cikgu told me smth funny
she put me as reserve EMCEE for SPEECH DAY!
WHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHA
now THATS really funny
HAAHAHAHA

perbayu pres elections paper is structured funnily
wakeekee!
that was supposed to be a luff btw.
hehe!
there are more funny things that happened today
but im far too lazy to type all down.
=))

okie i wana go do smth nice
=))) tata!
be happy awakiedoodledoos!!

jingga's bdae is in a (month-4days)'s time
hint hint =))

Because of you

Valid interpretation of the song
Because of you- Kelly Clarkson, breakaway

the singer's boyfren had been hit by a cowdung truck.
the singer mentions...
"I will not make the same mistakes that you did"
"I will not break the way you did"
"You fell so hard"
"I never stray too far from the sidewalk"
"I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt"
"I watched you die"
"I am afraid"
The singer says that she will not make the same mistakes her boyfriend did. which obviously a BAD one. we shall go to the next explanation so that we can suit one with one nicely. "i will not break the way you did". Obviously, her boyfriend had been broken by something. Someone with the right senses will know immediately that the 'thing' which smashed him had to be BIG. the next line "you fell so hard" how can someone fall hard? on a hard surface of the ground. next one. i never stray too far from the sidewalk. Right. Why would anybody wanna be too particular abt staying on the sidewalk. This will arise to the conclusion that something happened beyond the sidewalk whch made her rather shocked or taken aback. And what lies beyond the sidewalk? A ROAD! thats it. we're getting nearer to the final conclusion. I watched u die. He died. That thing which hit him must be DAMN BIG. i am afraid. well the singer MUST be VERY shocked during the time of event that it created a certain kinda phobia in her. Thus everything she experienced during the event has to be tragic and negative. even the smell.
this song is being written and sung in a modern day. we mayy assume that the place where there are sidewalks are not some country-side area. It has to be the town2 place. Now these town2 place area the soil in there lackk nutrients. they need a lot of fertilisers. thus fertilisers are needed to be transfered from the country side to the town2 area. THerefore, a LARGE amount of fertilisers will be needed to be transfered to cut down on the time and the no. of times of the travel. WE can then conclude that. A HUGE TRUCK carrying a whole pile of cowdung is travelling on the road at that point of time.
and if we were to conbine all the words together inclusive of my previous paragraph, u'd get this.
mistakes by bf, smashed by somthing damn big, on a road, led to singer's phobia, everything was negative drg the time of event, even the smell.
In conclusion, we can assume that the singer's boyfren had been hit by a truck carrying a whole load of cowdung and died as a result of being careless. This had happened in front the eyes of the singer.

*this entry was being written by someone heartless =)))

depressed once more

heylo?
hehe.
today is such a depressing dae
i feel rather depressed
who ever sits for a maths test
without a calculator?!
u are as dead as SHIT humairah.
but well. u are stupid
wad cna i do
u'd fail anyway
u are a hopeless piece of cowdung
i hate u.
i shall not bother talking abt u.
why do they hate me so much for being enthu.
bah.

aiyah. i donoe why im depressed now
of all the moments in the world
now.
but i shall still laugh
coz i dont wanna spoil myself
i dont wanna spoil my brain
i prayed that i wanna be happy
and i got it.
but i dint ask for satisfactory.
sigh! haha
God is playing tricks with me
haha.
Oh ALMIGHTY!!
=)) ilu.

impulse for toilet?

herloe.
my maid used my impulse to spray the toilet
coz she saed it smelled bad right after she used it
like it's my problem lah walao
then use my impulse
i came into the room and it went upp to my brain nerves
so STRONG!
fortunately, i dont use it anymore
so i dont care.
=)) see im happy. wee
actually i nearly screamed coz i tot it was my white musk
but i realised the smell was rather different
hehe

but still the idea of spraying the TOILET
with IMPULSE instead of some air freshener or niting
is very haha shocking.
hahha

ooh history sucks for now
=))

ooh i feel slutty.
i shall listen to slutty songs
toxic! intuition! kylie minogue's!

behind these hazel eyesss!!

ahhh
today was the most embarassing day EVER
boo.

anw. maths and ss test are on thurs
ive only startedd with maths
like wad de hell. =))
and historyy pt is duee on fridae
and bio pt is due next week
hrm. can die oredie lah.
blardie thing.

=)) im happy still
no matter wad
happy happy happy
anw ive started using conditioner everyday!!
haha and just i slept for a while
and my hair was sO SOFT when i woke up
haha.
but now it become rather rough
like scrubs
haahaa

i like playing clap2 with fiona
my hand will tremble in pain
with a hideous red patch on it
and we still continued playing

kwaaakwaakwaaakwaaaa

ooh i just had the weirdest toilet session just now
HAHA. wad a topic but oh wells.
i had dinner ard 7.25
and my maid cooked her homemade fishball soup
she makes her own fishballs lah
nice u noe. i like.
then there was this sambal cili padii..
*triggers my appetite*
i then flooded my plate with soup and fishballs
and selagi the plate isnt blackened by the sambal,
selagi itu i dint stop adding the sambal cili padi into it ar
gosh it was refreshing!! i like!!!
then there was like tahu goreng. and yes
dipped into sambal cili padi u get a rather heavenly taste
WOAHHHH!!!
haha although it's like nth big. i really felt refreshed by the spicyness
anw! after the whole meal, my mouth was red. haha! so freaky
and i kept farting farting farting
PROFUSELY! ok thats not good.
and i felt the food going down. like real fast
I SUDDENLY THOUGHT OF BIO!!!!
hahaha!
i went to the toilet after realizing that my stomach hurts
and then i actually VISUALIZED wadever is happening in my body lah
coz just now we discussed the process of diarrhoea.
and yes. haha. it felt so like it.
i can feel all the unabsorped water from my waste running fast through the large intestine
and then TO THE ANUS!
and then! SPLASHH!!!
hahaha!
oh gosh this entry is so censored
sorry i find it disgusting. haha!
hehe! but it's kinda amusing.
like ive never thought of studies when im SHITTING or peeing
haha sempat sey. but fuN! i wanna do again
wee!

*1 more month for me and mel

shitty me =)) happy happy happy

im not sure why
but i feel damn sucky nowadays
bah. i tink it's the weather
THATS A FALLACY!
POST HOC! POST HOC!
humairahh..
u cant possibly accuse the weather for ur shitty feelings
they are, obviously, not attributed to each other
=)) cheer up girl.

i donoe if i shud go for the guitar concert
i dont tink tim wud allow
i mean rg's she dint
like she will noww! haha

help. gosh.
why am i listening to depressing songs that are nice! haha
i enjoy themm
just that they just make me feel even shittier.
oh wello fello.
this isnt helping
i need to make sure my happy club works for me
=)))

GO WHYNNE!
I'LL ALWAYS BE THERE FOR U!
ILU ILU ILU!
GO CAPTAIN WHYNNE!!!
AYE AYE CAPTAIN! WOOO!

wooo

oh gosh
i hate suntec
it made me go crazy
but i liKE!! haha
i want i want i want
gosh
im a terrible shopper

tsktsk

perf task sucks lah

harloe!!!! happy belated racial harmony daY!

I LOVE ISHAWAK! keke
she loves me too!
ritee ritee?! hehe!

i likee my layout
how i wish i AM the girl
who is climbing that slippery slope
oooh thats a fallacy!
as in not wad i saed..
ah crap bullshit.

anwww!! just nowww
haha i saw some ppl..
me mary ari were like WONDERING
why they JUST had to walk back and forth
like 4 CONSECUTIVE times..
like got nothing better to do.
haha then we thought..
mebbe they have a crush on us
we are THAT attractive that we can attract girls!
WOAHAHA i feel mean. but yes. they looked rather stupid
ari was nice enuff to 'crush' someone kekeke
verrrrryyyyyyyyyy pretty!!
oh im so jealous
haha! im mean.
ok sorry.
ermermerm. oh yeah
later on we saw them at bk
and we were TINKING of walking back and forth
like a couple of time before leaving lah
but we dint. coz we are too nice.
thennn..
their 'heroes'... with no particular superpowers
or characteristics haha
camee strikingg their wayyy towards far east.
and tada! we were gone.

i like my layout.
i like i like.
tim MAY be letting me buy the pink swatch
i want!!!
okie. erm. but it'll be a gift for myself
haha. tim was like.. for wad?!!
and i saed for my birthdae. hahhah!

ilishawak!

harloe random. HAHA! ok. no? ah?!!

heylo.
im alone at home
i tink.
and i bought nice nice nice red/white brooch
i saw it yesterdae
hehe and i bought it today
i dont find myself impulsive anymore
since i tot for a dae before buying it

ive thought for 2 weeks abt the thing im gonna buy next
it's nice
i like i want i love!!
anw the brooch had cost 12.90 but i was given
erm count-yourself% of discount
so now it's erm 10
the booth-keeper told me it was 11.60 ydae
i tried asking for further discount
but she saed cannot
alah

i can receiveeeeeeeeeeee MMS! wOO!
hhaa i tink k700i phone are going bonkers haha

swatch watches =))

i wants! i wants! i wants!
swatch watches!! i want!
ok take a look at this.
chio watches. i want you.


scaly watch. i am reminded of my dry legs. haha


how elegant. it looks just like Bree-kinda-watch. altho ive not seen her watch before haha


ke-chio-an!! i like!!!!


this one. in my opinion. looks like it's from the cleopatra time. haha any connections?


ooh cats! made from my cat's fur! i likeee fur!!!


i have smthh like that. but hu cares. i still want.


bluee swatch. kinda plain. but nvm. i still want. haha


ooh i like this i like this! i like the blue crystals! so pro!


ah i see this everywhere. but i tink the straps are FUNKY! woo!

and last but not least.
the swatches that made me happy
iloveyou.


presenting... (drumrolls) vive le printemps!


next in line.. (drumrolls) amor de fuego!


and last but certainly not the least. the ever so chio.. Tandoori DELIGHT!!!

-curtain falls-

and of coz..

swatch. which brought all these to live. ilu too. muacks!

swatchyyy!

harloee!
i just checked out the names of my swatch watches
and they have rather amusing names! hahaa!
anw swatch swatches in the US is EXPENSIVE!!!!!!
hehe.

anw!!! u noe the buggy watch ok
that is called Vive Le Printemps
haha! so cool. i donoe wad it means
i dont even noe wad LANGUAGE! haha!
ok thats bad

okie then the beadyy red oneee...
with the squarish face
ok that is calleddd
Amor de Fuego!
this is spanish! rite rite rite?!!
no es AMOR! hehehe! yesyes!
funky!!

and the last one..
which is the one with a sequins
the red one..
and it is called...
TANDOORI DELIGHT!!!
ahahaha! it sure looks indian lahH!!!
kkekeke! its rather amusing
i like!!!

anw! i wanna buy the next season's swatches.
yummyy!!

haha wad petty asses..

humairahhhhhh
is
dead
ok
no
will
be
dead
by
erm
donoe
when

but
she
feels
dead!

grr
hu
told
her
hhuuu??
grr


she
feels
sad
coz
she
feels
someone
told
her
(another
someone)
smth
she
considered
private
and
over

yes
!
it
has
longggg
been
over
yes
so
she
wont
be
lying
if
she
saed
that
they
are
just
frens

oh
gosh
she
is
so
dead

humairahhhhhhhhhhhhh
wad
has
fate
done
to
u
?

*
self
-
pities
*

vois sur ton chemin

hehe we had this drama thinger just now
and erm it was gooodd.. but the plot was bleargh
anw i tot the main character wud be a little chioer
hehe. but it was good!
the actors and actresses were superrrr semangat
and they've got A LOTTT of stamina
imagine only 5 character each playing AT LEAST 2 wataks.
and the main character being in the scene for like FOREVER
thats impressive.
well. mebbe we can use some of the ideas seen in our own drama production
wee! if we were to have one even
heh.

anw! tomro...
my family, including me,
will be having dinner with abg toaps aka topa's family
not that i wont enjoyyy it hehe
but my mom warned me and my sister NOT to misbehave
and eat with etiquette keke
coz see last time like 3 years ago
we went to their house and they had DELIFRANCEEE bread!
so me and my sis went crazy
u noe the roti prancis. yeah
itink delifrance's bread is the BEST!
wee! and how am i to behaveee? tsk

ii have a feeling my sister is nervous
kekeke
and i have a feeling they're gonna discuss abt marriage!
woO!! i cant wait to be an aunt!
buttttttttt...
according to my sis..
she wont be a mom till like 2-4 years after marriage.
and thats sad.
by that time i'd be like almost 20.
and i'd have my firsttttttt nephew/niece only then
sad yea? not reallyyy..
but considering they are getting married like soon..
it's kinda longg./ not soon. not soon

my mom is also discouraging her from having a baby
woahaha. noe why?!
coz she wanna stay young.. (reputedly)
and having a GRANDCHILD wont exactly make u look young
also, she's afraid her house will go upsidedown
with little kids running around (it rhymes!!)
keke! andddd when my other sister gets married
we;re gonna buy a new house
wee! haha coz i tink not enuff space for another 2+X ppl to fit into the house
haha Let x be the no. of kids produced my the female factories
woahaha!

anw lets not talk abt marriages and children
lets talk abtttt...
cikgu.
haha cikgu noes how to surf fresnter!
oh gosh
and she used my accnt during RS
coz of some mission that she wanted to fulfill.
aperjer cikgu
haha
i asked her to make an accnt of her own hehe

anw just now during malaayy
we had this conversation on head prefects
and cikgu happened to be head prefect of ma'riff
and we were like.. OOH! how were u elected?
u got vote???
then she was like "masa dulu siket orang.. takder vote vote ni sumuer"
so we wondered.. "abeh camner dorang choose? dorang pilih cg gitu sajer? WOAHH!! bagos seyy!"
me: taklah..! cikgu volunteered!
WOAHAAHHA! kae it sounds funny then. haha!
everybody luffed hahaaaaa
then cikgu nearly ketuked my kepala..
but nvm ahhaa

anw. im bored. i wanna do work
where's everybody?

ishawak! i dont wanna doooooo agenda!
wad have we planned ishawak?!!!
haha! PRACTICALLY NOTHING!
show me ur minutes first okie?
so that there'll be a link on wad we did and wad we planned haha

=))))))))))))))))))))

badai smalam

haha i find the horoscope thing on frenster very amusing
haha!
imagine u happened to have a fight with someone
and u decide to go and check out their frenster accnt
and this horoscope happily saes
"u and (person) are having a SOUPER SMOOTH SAILING day today!"
IM SURE!!!!

haha! amusing rite! ahaha!
thats why we shudnt get ourselves all worked up when u read horoscopes
haha coz they are just some random stuff whcih will only turn out true once every 100 tries.
keke! how smart yeah. keke

yay!

gosh i hate malay pts.

great things happen whentimes are bad

great things happened today =)
1.we had make-up session
and i totally was impressed
by the way that shiseido girl made me up
haha my make up looks like bree's make up!
and i likeee it! yay!
shiseido ppl rock!
haha btw the other shiseido girl called me
to be the volunteer
coz she found my email add cute
haah the gmail one. haha tsk


2.i fell in love with a guy
fast ya? isnt that good! =)
and we're attached. <33

3. Desperate housewives at 10pm
oh goodieee!!

4. maths was fun
we were all shocked by our oh-so-shitty marks
mine esp. but well
surprises are meant to shock u =)
surprises are good for you

5. ACES was good!
the videotaping simply took 50mins only
=) as compared to the 5 hours daily videotaping we used to have
and all were screwed
and all were being declined by the PE HOD
woo! wad a success today

6. i was smiling the whole day
can u believe that? haah
and i was feeling rather sad
how peculiar is that!

7. later i tell
...
kae im telling now
i lied abt point no. 2
kekeke

8. kt isnt a pimp anyymore!! yay!
thats bcoz i was almost flawless just now
keke!

okie yea.
thats all
great things DO happen when times are bad
iluu!

i m sorryyy

hihi!

i tink im gonna get my phone soon
yay!
and Ipod mini
ahaha car's coming on wednesdae
but i still lost everything
gosh

andrew stephen roddick <33

hieehiee!!!

todaeeeeee is a daeeee full of maths
kekeke. i find todae very mathematical
first maths --> maths
then chem --> formulas --> maths
then shop --> money --> numbers --> maths
kekeke!

anw i hate DIA!
walao! why need they end the season that way~~~!!!
blardie hell i was eexpecting FIFI to die or smth
and i expected the Duik to be smarter
grr. and the only CHANGEEEEE is that Ivan confessed that he still loves DIA
and then... IT ENDED!!

ladeedoodaadeedaaddaaaadeeedaaa
pump itt !!! pump ittt!!1

whynne is a veryy fickle-minded person
beware!
she'll take a million years to choose
she'll make a million sandals cover the floor
she'll make patient ppl wait
and in the end
she'll not buy it.
HAHAHA
funnyyyyyyyyy person.

cant wait u hot date!

"The world casts its limelight on you just as you wanted,
everyone looks at you just as you've predicted,
but as you look at yourself, excited,
you realise that you're practically naked,
you'll then realise how it feels like being humiliated,
moral of the story: fame is never required
else, your confidence may be tapered"

wooOP! andrew!

my pond looks bald without the pretty pretty flower encircling it
who cares abt those fishes i just want the pretty2 flowers to be there
they dont make the pond look nicer or uglier
their presence is being ignored by ppl
their presence dont affect ppl!
ppl's view! ppl's feelings! ppl's health!
wad they affect is their POCKETS!!
they eat up all our money...
stupid fishesssss theyy have skin disease
blardie asses

anww!!
im happy
im not sure why
i tink GOD is trying to tell me smth!
tell me quick!

yay im growing fatter each day
bah
i need to go gym some time soon
kekeke no discipline ar you

EYY!
i dislike the idea of little ppl ..
okie not really little some are bigger
erm little juniors yes having to call us
KAKAK
this word "kakak" as u see.. means aLOT
it shudnt be used in school
yes respect u sae..
but cant it be in another wayyyy??
i mean i dont want to be called kakak
how then wud i appreciate or understand that ppl are actually respecting me
rite rite rite? do i make sense? i tink i make PERFECT SENSE out of wadever i just saed!
gosh haha wdv
but really i feel old. hehe
tak sedar diri.. kental..
kekeke. but yeahh uncomfortableee
i want to be YOUNG!
i dnt want to be reminded that im oldER hehe
that -er means a lot too.
=PPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP


ooh i tinkkkkk
i like... pump it!! haha so funkyy!
eyy why am i suddenly so into updating my blog entries?
wad has happened to humairah?
can someone helpfind ouT?!
help!

humairah i tink this entry is of random topics
wads with u?
AHHH!!

-crazeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!-

roddick!!!!!

heyLO!!! haha it has been a while since ive updated yeah?
keke my mP3 is BLASTING!! wwoo!
anww!! yesterdae i went to JB
today im supposed to study but my brain just cant function
soo i decided to blog.
hrm correction.. when has my brain ever functioned/?
properly..

erm never really. anw! i went to JB! to SHOP!
and buy my cat a cage.
have i told u? -no?-
my cat was hit by a vehicle!!! -wad?!!!-
yeah! and her hips are broken -ooh no!-
yesh and we have to keep her in a cage now. -ah?-
yeah so poor thing rite?1 tsktsk. -cries-

yeah anw woo. we went to eat at city square
and thennnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn there was this mat
who sang the nananaa part of the rich girl song
i mean it was soooo hideous.. he and the way he sang
it was SOOO TYPICAL MAT VOICEE!!!!!
so disgusting
even i cant imitate him lah.. how bad is that? tsktsk
it was loud and NANANANANANAAAAAAAAAAA
eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
me and my sis exhcnaged disgusted looks then we ran away
anw i tink malaysians have no sense of fashion
haha no offence but really
maaf

ive been listening to a lot of nice nice songs!!
like les choristes and ildivo! frankie J! yAYY!!

ooh roddick lost yesterdae match
HE LOST ALL 3 MATCHES!!!
eh no sets!! bahh!

but nvm he still looks hot!
anw i tagged at ari's tagboard and donoe hu this AJ person tagged, replying to my tag
and he was like u cant eat my dick all u want siti
EYYY!!!
blardie imposter
hu wants to eat UR dick asshole!
wana impose oso fail. the initials like VERY AJ AR!!
ANDY JODDICK issit?!
bah! go to hell lah

roddick is too hot to handle
i wanna dieeeeeee looking at him wooo!
and look at thatT!!!!



WOOO!!!! hotness to the max!
i wonder who's hotter than that.
greatness!!
hehe! are u ok humairah? ok? good!

yay!! i loveee ANDY RODDICK!!!
ANDY ANDY!