what is wrong.

my insecurities are as alive as they were before. it shouldn't matter anymore. so why do i even bother getting hurt.

lead us to the right path ya Rabb.

that feeling when you come to know of the kind of effort someone puts in to change his course of life to the right path, and still humbles his effort which you see as being magnanimous....

... it warms the heart.

then the insecurities kick in. haha.

May Allah give what's best for us and our deen. InsyaAllah. Amin.

:)

“Young man, if you are mindful of Allah (of His commands and prohibitions), He will be mindful of you, and if you are mindful of Allah you will find Him before you. When you ask for anything ask it from Allah, and if you seek help, seek help from Allah. Know that if the people were to unite to do you some benefit they could benefit you only with what Allah had decreed for you, and that if they were to unite to do you some injury they could injure you only with what Allah had recorded for you. The pens have been lifted and the pages are dry.”

AHMAD, TIRMIDHI, AN-NAWAWI’S FORTY HADEETH